Erotic scene from a novel I'm writing in Spanish, "The Fascist, the Red and the Coup."
Luis is a young lawyer and double amputee. He has to share a room with his secretary Nina in a small village in Castile where his dark businesses have taken them.
Sasamón (Burgos, Spain), Friday July 25, 1980
“I want to take a bath, to see if I can relax,” Luis said to Nina. “But if you want to shower first, I don't mind waiting.”
“No, please, go first. Take all the time you want. I'm going to clean up my notes for you to read later.”
Luis went into the bathroom, put the stopper in the tub and turned on the faucets. He undressed and sat on the edge of the tub to remove his prosthetic legs. When he took off the second one, he lost his balance and fell backwards into the bathtub with a big splash, hitting his head against the wall.
Nina came running into the bathroom.
“Boss, what happened? Are you okay?”
Luis grabbed the edge of the tub and managed to sit up. He wiped his eyes with his knuckles.
It was totally humiliating to be naked and helpless in front of her.
“No big deal… I fell while taking off my prosthetic legs. I'm fine.
“You should have asked me for help. I’ve nothing else to do.”
Nina sat on the edge of the tub. She took a towel and put it on the back of his head. When she took it off, it was smeared with blood.
“You are going to get a lot of blood in the water. Let’s see…”
Nina unrolled some toilet paper, folded it, and put it on the back of his head.
“Better. Hold it with your hand… Like that. Do you want me to wash you?”
“No, Nina. I'd rather do it myself…”
“Why are you so determined to make your life more difficult, boss? Come on, lie back.”
Nina took him by the shoulders and helped him lie on his back. Luis closed his eyes and allowed himself to relax. His head and butt hurt from the fall. He did feel a little shocked. He took a deep breath, waiting for the pain to pass.
If Nina insisted on mothering him, why shouldn't he let her? After all, she had already seen him naked. Since he’d lost his legs, bathing had become a complicated and risky affair. Carolina, his wife, often helped him do it.
He felt Nina's hand grabbing his left stump. He opened his eyes, alarmed.
Nina stared fascinated at the stump sticking out of the water, a bar of soap in her hand. It was an ugly purple color, with wrinkles where the skin sealed the broken femur. He had seen his stumps a thousand times and still hadn't gotten used to them.
He had always been embarrassed by show his stumps. No one managed to hide their disgust. It had taken Carolina months to get over it.
But there was no disgust on Nina's face. Just curiosity and dedication. She began to lather his stump. The delicate touch of her fingers on his skin was delicious. Luis closed his eyes and abandoned himself to the sensation.
When she was done, she reached into the water for his right stump. Luis opened his eyes and saw that he was soaking the sleeves of her shirt.
“You're getting your clothes wet, Nina.”
“It's true,” Nina said, looking at her shirt. “Oh no! I even have blood stains on my shirt! Well, since you're naked, I guess you won't mind if I take it off.”
Without waiting for his answer, Nina put the soap back in the soap dish and unbuttoned her shirt. She took it off and put it on the toilet. Her bra was black against her white skin. Her breasts looked round and firm.
He knew how this was going to end. He could stop it now. Send her out of the bathroom and not cheat on Carolina.
But why shouldn't he take advantage of an opportunity like this? It surely would never come again. Why couldn't he screw his secretary, like any other boss?
She wanted it. Another woman would have left the bathroom upon realizing that he was naked, instead of taking advantage of his helplessness.
And Nina hadn't hesitated for a second to take off her shirt.
What a slut you've hired, Luis! His father's voice said in his head.
It may be a slut, dad. But she's my slut.
But he still felt ashamed and powerless.
He could not allow her to continue to take the initiative.
“Keep undressing, Nina.”
“Don Luis, I think you misunderstood my intentions. I just wanted to help.”
“I think I understood your intentions perfectly, Nina.”
“Don Luis, surely you will want to be faithful to his wife. And, for me, not to become the secretary who sleeps with the boss.”
Maybe she was right. His sister might be a whore, his mother an adulteress, and his father a whoremonger, but he didn't have to be like them. He could be a virtuous man, as advised by Marcus Aurelius and the Stoic philosophers that had helped him get out of his depression, and not take his own life, when he lost his legs.
Nina's gaze met his. In her eyes he read an unmistakable lust. He never thought that he would arouse such intense desire in a woman again. He desperately needed to know if it was true.
“You’ve told me many times that you were at my disposal for whatever I needed. And now I need to see you naked.”
“It's true, I've told you many times, and I was being sincere. And, for the record, it's not because you pay me, but because I want to serve you from the bottom of my heart. Because you believed in me and gave me a chance when I didn't deserve it.”
He didn't expect to hear something so intimate. But it was consistent with their conversation the night before.
“I know. You are in my debt. And I've always intended to collect that debt.”
“You are the one who is married. It is your decision. I'll do what you tell me, boss.”
“Then undress. Please, don't make me repeat myself.”
Nina folded her arms behind her back to unhook her bra. She placed it on her shirt. Her breasts were not as large as he liked, but her nipples were thick and dark.
Nina watched him ogle her with neither embarrassment nor pride. She unzipped her skirt and let it fall to the floor. It went on top of her other clothes. She kicked off her shoes. Sitting on the toilet, she unrolled her stockings. Then she stood up and pulled down her panties. Black fur hid her most intimate secrets.
Her naked body was even more beautiful than he had imagined. A flat belly, graceful hips, and muscular yet feminine thighs.
“Turn around, Nina. I want to see your ass.”
How stupid! His father's voice said in his head.
Nina turned her back to him. She had cute dimples on top of her perky buttocks.
Luis felt his cock harden.
“Do you like my butt, boss?”
“You have a beautiful butt, Nina.”
She turned to face him.
“Can you make room for me in the tub? Or do you want me to wash you from the outside?”
Luis slid to the end of the tub, making room for her. Nina stepped into the water, kneeling in front of him. She took the bar of soap and began to lather his chest.
“You are a very attractive man, Don Luis.”
His heart skipped a beat at hearing her say that.
“Nonsense. An invalid like me cannot be considered attractive.”
“Excuse me, boss, but it's you who talk nonsense. There are many things in a man that can be attractive, apart from his legs. Like a muscular chest, strong shoulders and an elegant face. Not to mention a brilliant brain, which has always been what I liked most about you.
“You are flattering, Nina. It's a shame that I know that you are a liar.”
“However, after that first lie, I promised you that I would never lie to you again. Don’t you remember? And you told me you'd give me a spanking if you ever caught me in another lie.”
“Well, I hope we’ll both keep our promises.”
“I will. When I told you that I like you, it was the truth. Lean back, please.”
Luis leaned back, letting his body float in the water. Nina grabbed his right stump and kissed it. Then she lathered it, working her way down his thigh until she found his erect cock. She wrapped it in her fist.
“Do you want me to take care of this, too?”
Luis grabbed her wrist and forced her to let go of his cock. He sat up and looked into her eyes.
“What I want, Nina, is to fuck you. If you don't mind, of course.”
“I see you're not beating around the bush, boss. So, that’s what we are going to be? The boss and the secretary who sleep together?”
“I don’t see why not. It’s a respectable tradition. And I am very traditional.”
“And your wife? Does she also respect that kind of traditions?”
“She’d better, after all I've done for her.”
"So, you are going to tell her?"
“Of course not! And you better not tell anyone, understand?”
“As you pointed out on the first day, the word secretary comes from secret. Maybe that's why there are so many secretaries that sleep with their boss.”
“Let me be clear. On our daily interaction, you’ll have to behave as if none of this had happened. No kisses, no hugs, no flirting. Even if there is nobody else there.”
Nina pouted.
“Are you sure? If we're going to be lovers, I wouldn't mind if you groped me once in a while. It can help you relieve stress.”
“For now, it will be better that we both behave with decorum. We must never lose professionalism and mutual respect.”
“I do understand that, Don Luis. You have always treated me with respect. You are quite a gentleman, and I appreciate that.”
Nina washed his hair, then washed herself. He watched her. Kneeling in front of him, she lathered her breasts, her belly, her thighs, her ass and her crotch, letting him appreciate the firmness of her body. He held back his urge to touch her, letting the ritual that had been established between them take its natural course. He would have plenty of time to grope her.
When she finished washing herself, Nina put her feet on his shoulders, pinched her nose and dove under the water, raising the level dangerously close to the edge.
“And now what do you do?” she said, twisting her hair to drain it. “Do you put on your prosthetic legs to walk to the bed?”
It was a tedious process. At home, he would sometimes crawl from the bathroom to his bed, which was just a mattress on the floor. But crawling was too undignified to do in front of Nina.
“There is no other way.”
“I could carry you in my arms. You are probably not too heavy.”
The image of him being carried in her arms like a baby was even worse than crawling.
“No, thanks. I'll put on my legs on. It doesn't take that long.”
“I hope you will not fall again.”
“Not if you give me a hand.”
Nina helped him out of the tub and to sit on the edge. Then she held him while he strapped on his prosthetic legs. He let her dry him with the towel.
Naked, they walked into the bedroom. There were two single beds. They could fit in one only if they held each other. Nina asked him if she wanted his prosthetic legs removed.
“Better not, for now.”
Nina giggled nervously.
“I'm not on the pill, boss. But I always carry condoms in my bag. Do you mind if I go get them?”
“No at all.”
Nina came back with a strip of condoms and left them on the nightstand. She lay down by his side, resting her head on his shoulder, tangling her fingers in the hair on his chest.
“If I have to be honest, I can't wait. I haven't had a decent fuck in years.”
“And I’d wanted to fuck you from the first time I saw you.”
Nina's hand trailed down his belly to his cock. She wrapped her fingers around it.
“But you didn't hire me because of that.”
“No. I hired you for being a liar.”
“Seriously?”
“You can see the kind of business I'm in. In some situations, knowing how to deceive someone can be a matter of life and death. Neither I want anyone with scruples that would make her hesitate at a critical juncture. Or, what would be worse, betray me.”
Nina's fist closed around his dick.
“I will be loyal to you, Don Luis. Fucking me can be like sealing a blood pact.”
“I hadn't looked at it that way. Getting laid doesn't have to be of any consequence.”
“Oh, but sometimes it does! Fucking makes people bond, right? And, with this, I am showing you that I was serious when I told you that I am at your service for anything you need.”
Nina placed her thigh over his belly, trapping her hand with her cock under it.
She kissed him lightly on the lips.
“Well, I suppose that fucking has any meaning we want to give it.”
“Let's give it this one, then,” said Nina. “Let it be a pact of loyalty between us.”
Her thumb caressed his frenulum, sending sparks of pleasure.
“It just got hard,” she said. What if we put a condom on it?”
“Go ahead.”
Nina turned to the nightstand and got a condom. She tore off the wrapper and looked at it doubtfully.
“I don't have much experience with this. You better put it on.”
“To have experience, you need practice. Put it on. If you mess up, there are more condoms.”
Nina kneeled by his hips. She unrolled it over his stiff cock.
“Oops! I think it's inside out.”
Luis sat up to examine it.
“There is no inside or outside. It's okay.”
“And now what?”
Her dark nipples looked at him like another pair of eyes. He reached out to feel the firmness of her breast. He pinched her thick nipple, felt it rise under his fingers. Nina looked down at his hand. Luis gradually increased the pressure until he saw Nina grimace and bite her lip. He stopped.
“Don’t stop,” she said. “I like it.”
He squeezed again. She smiled at him. With his other hand, he explored the slit of her pussy. She was soaking wet.
“Straddle me,” he ordered.
Nina put one knee on either side of his hips and sat on his belly. He could feel her wetness on his balls.
“Put it in.”
“I… I've never done it like this… I'm not sure how.”
“It's not that hard, Nina.”
He grabbed her by the nipples to pull her up. Realizing what he had to do, Nina grabbed his cock, angling it to aim for her entrance. Then she lowered herself on him. Luis felt his penis bend, but it soon found the opening and slipped inside. The vagina that enveloped him was warm and moist and tight. Nina kept lowering herself until she was sitting on his lap, the hairs of her pussy tickling his balls.
Nina looked down at him with a surprised expression, as if she herself didn't believe what she had done.
“Wow! This feels amazing! Doesn’t it?”
“You did quite well, Nina,” he said, stroking her ass.
“Oh, I’m so glad! I've never done it like this before… Normally, they shove it in and start pumping like crazy. This time I could feel it gradually filling me… Am I talking nonsense?”
“Complete nonsense… I love it!
She smiled at him.
“Shall I move? I'm not sure how.”
“Up and down. Slowly… I’ll guide you.”
He grabbed her hips and helped her raise a little. When he felt that he was almost out of her, he pushed her down again.
“See? That’s the range of motion.”
“I see… Without your legs, it’s easier for you like this… Oh, sorry! I didn't mean to offend you.”
“You haven't offended me, Nina. I can fuck on top, too. Especially when I have my legs on… They act as a counterweight.”
She put her hands on his chest and started going up and down on him.
“You're right… This feels good… I like it… I like it a lot.”
He put a hand on her ass to feel her move as she fucked herself with him. With the other hand, he pinched her nipple again. Nina responded by moving faster.
“Yes! Hurt me, boss!”
Luis gave her a strong squeeze. Nina threw her head back in ecstasy. He felt her come, her pussy contracting around his cock.
With her orgasm, she had stopped moving. Frustrated, Luis pushed her aside. He climbed on top of her. Nina's eyes widened in surprise as he entered her again.
“Now I’m going to show you that I can fuck you perfectly well from the top.”
He grabbed her thighs to spread her legs wide, pushing them up.
“Of course, boss! Show me what a real man can do to me!”
He began to pump her hard, at first slow and deep, then gradually increasing the pace. Nina grabbed him by his shoulders, as if wanting to push him off. Instead, her hands moved down his sides and down his hips to end up squeezing his buttocks, which contracted with every thrust. As he began to come inside her, he heard her scream and felt her shake with another orgasm.
Luis rolled to one side, filled with vague suspicions and remorse.
Nina turned towards him and kissed him on the lips.
“Damn, I feel so good! Clearly, I needed a good fuck like this!”
“I'm glad you had a good time, Nina. I enjoyed it, too.”
“You are an incredible lover, Don Luis. I really enjoyed riding you. And, after that, you behaved like a real animal!”
“I think I'd better go sleep in the other bed.”
“No, no, please!” Nina grabbed him by the arms. “Let’s sleep together. I need to feel your skin against mine. I've been lonely for so long!”
“Well, I hope we're not too uncomfortable.”
“We won’t be, you'll see. Let me take the condom off. And your legs.”